Thinking and knowledge will improve the man.
No, this one is much more accurate.
Thinking and knowledge will change the man.
When I was in high school, the pressure of study and homework, and fear of grade and results make me concentrate on the law of society, which I will live in.
But, now I entered college.
I have free-time.
I can study what I want.
I can do what I want.
I can be what I want.
That's what I expected.
There's no difference.
High school = College
I can't study what I want.
I can't do what I want.
I can't be what I want.
College life is different from my expectation.
What I can do was think. Thinking, thinking, and thinking. Again and again and again and again.
And that was the start.
I'm taking a break from university, and take a rest, for restoration.
I have to go to the army, because of conscription law.
But, they say I'm unfit. Physical, emotional, both way.
However, that doesn't mean I can skip it.
They want me to go to the army, after receiving treatment.
But my health is getting worse.
Rage and complaint. That's what society give to me.
I feel like I'm taking drugs to survive in this world.
But I don't. I don't even drink or smoke. Not even drink a coffee.
Depression disorder is not easy to cure. A few words are not enough.
This language is lock me in the jail of.....un-communiate-able?
No, there's no appropriate word for this.
답답해. 소통할 수 없어.
이 문자가 나올 수 있는 국가도 별로 없겠지.
예전같으면 이 망할 사회 때문에 미치겠다는 말을 하겠지.
하지만 지금은 이렇게 바뀌었다.
이 망할 사회 때문에 난 미쳤어.
미친 사회에서 정상적으로 살아가려면 미쳐야 돼.
하지만 난 미치지 않았어. 그래서 난 사회에서 미친 사람 취급을 받아.
그러니까 난 미쳤어.
무언가가 잘못되었다고 말하는 사람은, 그때부터 잘못된 사람으로 취급당한다. 그게 여기다.
나중에 돌아올거다. 하지만 그 전엔 내가 있는 곳에만 집중할 것이다.
아예 못 돌아올 수도 있고.
I'm writing a words and sentences, as if I'm talking right in front of you.
You must consider that.
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