Very bad. I mean really. seriously.

I'm Highschool-3rd grades. Next year, I'm going to college.
I have to lots of study. Our country's people think graduating college and receive college diploma is necessary, like a identification card.
Everybody wanna best college, and I need to study hard. That makes me more stressful.

And, I'm also computer addict. In serious case. I've been had some psychoteraphy, but it didn't work. Which mean I'm still addicted. And it is one of my serious conflict maker with my family(Especially parents, but no exception to other relatives).

And last week, I had some trouble with my father, again, and I was beated by father.
That was hurt a lot, in every way. Physically, mentally, emotionally, etc.

One thing I surprised was, I didn't cry, not even shedding. Only few years ago, I was cry a lot when I was beated. I think my brain think it is don't have a worth to crying, because kinda get used to it.

And yesterday, I found my naver(Our country's popular site, like a Blogger.) ID was hacked by someone, and one of my posting was changed to advertising some porno video.

Seriously, I.......really.....raged a lot. And some mens are subscribed at post which I didn't even knew about it.

And because of that post, I was temporary restricted by site every blog service except view posting. I can't explain what happened, and I cannot even reply to someone. Only I can do is watching others' thing. For now.

The restricthion release day is 3/14, one week later from my birthday.
And hacked day was very next day after my birthday.
What a fuckish birthday present.....I even make some plan about blog posting, and its......delayed.....

The Goddess of fortune hate me. And other gods are, too.
Cause I don't believe gods?

And I'm not sure I'm safe from hacker right now. I'm still uneasy.

.........I'm trying to show happy feelings to you guys but it's not easy cause of my life.

Stressful days, or weeks. Hoping something make me feel better happen to me.